Little bit of yo-yo action

I fully acknowledge and embrace the fact that parenting is HARD.  I even say so as a part of my sub-title!  So it shouldn't come as any surprise that I have yo-yo days...the days when I want the gypsies to sweep in and just take the children and then I reconsider and think I should take on a baby sitting job myself for extra cash.  *sigh*  I don't remember my momma ever saying there'd be days like this.

So, what's to be done?  Well, once again, Beloved is a wonderful, loving, patient guy and he's coming to my rescue.  We are trialing out Momma-Away-Evenings.  The thought is that I have dinner ready to go when Beloved arrives home about 6:00pm.  I can then enjoy supper, give good-nights hugs and kisses, and disappear.

• Monday, dinner was ready, but Boy has karate until 6:15, so we met at the PD center and traded car keys.  I didn't go anywhere...I spent a few minutes at the library computer lab before wandering out and meeting them at the park, going home, and having dinner.
• Tuesday, I went to the main library on a mission for Beloved, then sat in the kids' section until closing, picking out books on cassette for the car for Boy.
• Wednesday, I am going to my first belly-dancing class with Rain.  I'm really nervous...I'm not coordinated AT ALL!
• Thursday, there is a Mom's Night meetup that I'm thinking about going to.
• Friday, a group of some friends are getting together for a discussion night, and I'm toying with joining them for that.  
• Saturday, I'm hoping to attend a drum circle, possibly with Beloved and the kids.
• Sunday, I'm stealing Beloved away, leaving the kids with my dad, and going to Starved Rock for the Vintage Illinois wine festival with Tina and her family.

We're trying it out.  Last night, Beloved said he hadn't seen me so relaxed in months, so I guess it's helping.  *bites lip*  I need to work on not feeling guilty about this.

To THAT end, I might be getting a job!  No, not baby-sitting.  I'm looking at Remilon, and actually have the second "test" due date.  Basically, they want you to research and write about career education programs to help students decide what path/school to choose.  It starts out at $8/hr, which isn't great, but it's work whenever I want to - 15 hrs/week - and academic research, which I never really minded.  So...*shrug*  After taxes, I could be bringing home $300-400 a month.  That would be a nice bonus, and instead of trying to think up something to do in my evenings away from home, I can "go" to work.  I'll let you know...